Wednesday, April 16, 2008

Hey Wife,

More than two weeks since my last entry. Where does the time go? You're about to turn 29, we're coming up on 3 years, and Kate is more than 7 months old. Who knows, her little brother or sister might be cooking in the oven. Haha.

Life has been busy, busy, but it's also been fun. Not that my schedule really lets us do too much. We haven't taken a real vacation for 17 months yet we seem to be managing. If at times I don't tell you what a great job you're doing, just refer back to this post. I think you're an amazing wife and mother. You really are the glue that holds our family together. One big encouragement for me has really been seeing you grow spiritually this last year. I'm grateful that we go to a church like New Life and are surrounded by others who prioritize well.

Thanks for supporting me this past couple of weeks when work was tough. I had my doubts about whether or not my career moves were wise or even the right thing to do. But your support is what really helps me disregard my doubts and it makes me focus at the task at hand. I'm truly grateful for your companionship.

Love,
Hubby.

Monday, March 31, 2008

Busy weekend

This weekend was dinner with the Jun's at Robin's BBQ and the MTAC performance at your house. I had to watch Kate in the morning b/c of the MTAC morning. I only really had to watch her from 10 am until about 1:45 pm. Then of course you were kind enough to let me go down to church to play basketball.

I don't know if it was watching Kate or remnants from my previous week at work but when 9 pm rolled around, was I tired. And of course you must've been too. But you being you, did more work around the house and let me go to bed by 9.30 so that I wouldn't be exhausted at work the next day. I have to say, there probably aren't too many wives out there like you. I'm glad you're my wife.

You watch and raise Kate so wonderfully and you probably feel like you're raising me too. Hopefully, I can take care of you the way you deserve financially, but most importantly spiritually. I hope I can create a place of "rest" for you in our family as you've done so often for me.

-hubby

Monday, March 24, 2008

Dearest Joy,

Time sure does fly when you're raising an active girl. Our lives seem so busy these days. Me with my CFA studying and crazy work hours. You with your gazillion students, taking care of Kate, and being OCD about cleaning. And even the weekends don't seem to offer a respite with family, church, errands, and softball.

I wish we could pause once in a while and do nothing. I know you're a caring and generous person and I feel like I'm taking advantage of these traits. I hope that we can stop, breathe, and just enjoy each other's company with no distractions. I'm sure a time like that will come (hopefully sooner than later), but in the meantime and for all the future times when life is hectic, I just want you to know that I appreciate your grace. Your understanding is truly a blessing.

And in case you forget, this past week was the week in which Kate decided that it was no longer fun to sleep for more than 2 hours at a time. I think you woke up an average of 8 times each night. Thank you so much for being a good mother and husband. Both Kate and I are unworthy of your care.

love,
hubby

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

So Far So Good

Joy,

Last Friday, you called me with great news. The technician that took your ultrasound said that the lump doesn't seem to be anything serious. I'm scared to breathe a sigh of relief still, until the specialist confirms that nothing is wrong. Nevertheless, I'm grateful that things seem to be alright.

Another thing we've been discussing a lot is moving down to Irvine. We visited Robin and Irene and we both know that things might be easier if we were down here, but we just don't know if we can make it work financially. One thing that I'm looking forward to as I blog all of the happenings in our life is that we'll look back on everything and see God's hand in it. I don't know whether or not we will be in Irvine and I don't know what my work circumstances will be in 2 years. But what I do know and expect is that we will keep going to God with our desires and prayers and seek His will in everything. I'm certain that He will cause all things to work together for the good of those who love Him.

love,
your hubby

Thursday, March 6, 2008

First Entry

Joy,

I've been meaning to do something like this for a long time now. A diary, a note here and there, or even an email telling you how much you mean to me. But alas, as you would say, I am my father's son. Words that tease and rib flow easy, but those that describe my inner most feelings rarely see the light of day.


But our relationship and most of all, the gift of having you as my wife and partner in this race means enough to me to want to share what you mean to me. I'm unsure when I will tell you about these blogs, so I'll put enough details in them so that you can hopefully remember if not approximate your feelings.

I guess the thought that overrides all other thoughts at the current moment would be the lump that is in your chest. I hate myself for not forcing you to do something sooner. I blame myself for putting my career, entertainment, and even Kate above your well-being. Never again, is the promise going forward. Your health will always be of the utmost importance from here on out. One mixed blessing is that the lump forces me to pray more. During my long commutes in the morning, I have been asking God to really care for our family. It scares me because I don't want him to use you to teach me a lesson about dependence. I pray to God that nothing horrible would happen to you and that I would GLADLY take on any sickness or suffering on your behalf. But I also realize that even a lump in me would probably not cause me to pray faithfully. It could only take something in you or Kate to cause me to pray consistently.

On a more upbeat note, I just want to say that your support to me means the world. Even as I right, I can see the time is 7 pm and I have to quickly wrap up so I can join you and Kate for dinner. I know you miss the late nights of chatting, watching tv, and doing nothing. I do too. I hope we can both become accustomed to my schedule sooner than later. I can only hope that for all the sacrifices you're making right now, God would reward you. I was originally going to write that I wish I could reward you, but I realize that His riches are so much greater than anything I can offer.

I love you,
your hubby